3 AM thoughts.

You know, we are all growing up now. Some of my friends have already graduated, some are working, some are getting married, I'll be finishing with my final year in a month and then I'll be an intern, my sister is getting married and moving away from home. Time is moving so fast. Just yesterday we were a bunch of kids fooling around, making plans of meeting up and thinking of the future like it is light years away, and just like that, here we are. We will leave hostel soon and drift apart. We are going to be like the grown ups who reminisce and get nostalgic about the past and tell stories about it to anyone who is willing to listen. And still, inspite of all this, we stand so uncertain, so unsure of the nebulous future that's looming upon us. It's like we are sprinting in a vast field unaware of our destiny. Just running and running and running. Chasing the Sun, going where life is taking us. But soon there will be a dead end and you'll know that this is it. I'm on my own hereupon. Then you'll look around and all the peers you were running with would have disappeared. You'll be left alone to fend for yourself. However, you would have always anticipated this, so with a quaint smile you'll take the first step. It's like putting your feet in the water at the beach. You don't know how cold it is, but you know for certain you want to take the plunge. So little by little, you wade inside the water and all at once you dive and swim and feel exhilarated.
This feels somewhat like that. You're so unsure, so naive, yet so eager to know what awaits you. Maybe that's the beauty of it all, the spontaneity has it's own charm. You embrace it on your journey, and one fine day you open your eyes and you're accustomed, you know it like the back of your hand and you've admixed with it. It feels like breathing, so natural, so effortless. Then you prepare yourself for another milestone, for the next threshold, from where you'll jump again to another universe. One more time.